the fireworks are over / the dogs have stopped barking
my cats have come home from under cover hiding
the only changes I have seen so far
but all the changes will have to be in me
or it will be the same old year again
is what i’m thinking
and how to change myself ??
that’s the hardest one
everything else is do-able
there’s a tool or a way
or a strategy or a precedent
but how to make your way
among the tangled labyrinths
of your own mind ??
how to trim and prune
so the path is known
even in the rain even
in the dark
even in the foggy foggy night
when dusk settles in and inhabits my soul
maybe that’s it
trimming and pruning when the weather is right
so i can find my way
when there is no light
those trees are not my enemy
they are guide posts
i have been here before
another year
sunrise and sunset
and years go by
and a lifetime goes by
and everything disappears
even time
even your own mind
oblivion arlo guthrie called it
i like that word
although i’m not sure what it means
something about everything disappears
as we know it and even knowing
disappears as we know it
is what i think it means
but i don’t really know
i just want to know myself
how to change me
how to be fully alive
how to gather together
the good gifts
which is basically everything
everything is amazing
and everything is being given
disease usually results from
inconclusive negotiations for symbiosis
says lewis thomas in his book ‘the lives of the cell’
interesting and maybe being unsatisfied or irresolute
results from inconclusive negotiations
with the giver of good gifts
maybe that’s it
in a strange way of putting it
how to find my way and mark it
for a new year 2025
are you my ally ??
are you my foe ??
and what do you signify 2025 ??
are we negotiating successfully ??
are we in agreement ??
and what can i bring ??
if you bring everything
. . . i can bring me
i can be free
music for podcast from Boards of Canada 16:30-21:10
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